Day 5

I'm bored. I have nothing to do. I'm currently laying on my bed listening to Devil's Eyes (Classixx Remix) by: Drop The Lime and I seriously have nothing better to do. I was to make several important phone calls but I can not remember what or who they were for. I've done one of them which was to the company that hold my anxiety for a job... Hopefully I get it :D

Hmmm might go search for my lunch and watch a dvd BRB!

Back from lunch. Red Rooster 'cheesy nuggets' are good! Had a 12 pack meal for lunch. No what to do? BRB.

So I've been listening to music on shuffle in my iTunes and have come across several tracks of which it's my first time hearing. They sound good. Haha i love it when I find music on my computer I've never heard of before. BRB.

Okay so I've now watched Chicago, chatted with my mum and now at his house chatting and listening too all this new music I've found on my computer (which apparently I've given to him already BRB.

I have no petrol BRB.

So whatever, he says he can't have fun with me because I take things the wrong way. I thought we were past all this shit and now referring to what I have previously said I'm whipped in love and it hurts. I keep trying and trying to please him but I don't know anymore. I get the impression now that I'm not wanted, yet it could be my insecurity talking, I don't know. I'm confused and disoriented and now as I sit in his room while be try's to sleep I can sense the tension. No more typing, he might get further annoyed :( Until tomorrow... Night!

Back, I just can't sleep. It hurts me, "I can never have any fun with you like I do other people". I get it now why I feel he treats me like shit; it's because he does and that says why. He's so much nicer and accommodating to others over me. Please say I'm over reacting!!!!